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Deliverance
02:06
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Enough
05:28
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along the line of harmony lies the same feeling you gave to me
along the time of you hurting me your presence meant the world to me
it’s hard to notice when you’re hurt when your mind is stuck in berserk
after all, after all that’s worth fighting for is gone and you’re still craving more
i tried to figure it out but the memories can’t be undone
on and on in my head i think of how i can’t refuse
balancing temptation of your love and how it benefits you
it’s hard to open up your heart when you know you’re fucked from the start
after all, after all that’s worth living for is gone and you’re still craving more
you have a piece of me i was so destined to keep
my heart was so full of love
but my love just wasn’t enough
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3. |
Perfect
04:03
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your perfect taste meant happiness, if i’m being honest
calmly erase my memory, cuz i don’t even want it
make my toxic dreams come true, make me feel guiltless
start life over as someone new, it sounds so perfect
i think i lost control again
flooding my mind with raw emotion again
feeding the demons as they crawl to gain control as i fall
to lose myself in it all - it sounds so perfect
could it be the end? i don’t know how much more i can take of this
it’s hard to even exist without - it’s hard to even imagine a world without it
there’s so much i want to do in this world instead of this habit
but i can’t seem to shake it
i want to feel alive again
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4. |
OId Habits
04:35
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i’ve reached complete euphoria
winning the fight, feeling victorious
old habits come for me to slip again
it’ll keep on coming until the end
i feel the old me coming out
it’s been so hard trying to figure out
this noise that’s been in my head
my life revolves around death
feel the world swallow me whole
let it corrupt my soul
and every time my mind has slipped away from me
i long for you again and again
it’s the old habits coming
again and again
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5. |
An Abstraction
03:50
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i might be losing my mind trying to understand this
trailing diasporic wake
languishing irrespective
i’m holding onto darkness now
spilling freely from my hands
my thoughts bleed as you do
crimson died heavy black
maybe i was never meant to know you
puddles and pools and rivers like veins
of black water beating out each time we talk
flowing from me. flaring through you.
from this venom only poison survives
so shouldn’t i leave you?
that’s something i’ll never know
i’m holding onto you now
as you softly rest my hands
on the holes of our darkened wounded heart
with the sound of your breathing i feel at home
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6. |
Downfall
04:43
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for fuck’s sake, where do i begin?
i feel my world is collapsing within
dragged down to hell with the weight of it all
waiting for the tragedy to take us all
falling in line with the average man
giving in to the world like i would again
i sold my dreams for unreliable shit
wasted my time shoving pieces that don’t fit
yet i don’t get this motivation - what gives us hope in isolation?
turning into an empty shell, giving in to a personal hell
hello again... i hope you figured out
the voices in your head are giving you doubts
there’s no way out if you’ve surrendered it all
to the pandemic that’s taken us all
in a world with no sleep we cannot dream
since we’ve learned our freedom doesn’t matter
there is no purity in security
in a panic they’ve built disaster
forever after our dreams are shattered
with the world in their hands their grip becomes tighter
they wouldn’t want us to think for ourselves
they’d want us to accept our damnation
burn it away, burn it away, burn it away
i risked this world for nothing
i was only a part of theirs
playing along to fate
i’d never change course
if i wasn’t human
and lived outside consequence
this world would be a better place
this world would be ours
is this life worth living? or is it a fucking joke?
i didn’t think it’d matter if i were to know
why do i keep living?
i’m struggling to find any home i hold on to
that i didn’t leave behind
is there something out there?
on the other side
of this hell i’ve found myself in
i really need to know
and what’s waiting for me? when can i return?
maybe it’s gone missing
or maybe it’s burned away
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7. |
Resonance
04:58
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i want to hold on
hold on to the world we thought we had
what would be broken - all the pieces of false hope
as all the pieces collapse - let consequence act
erase the past - reassemble back
you can still see the cracks in your reflection
you can finally see the truth in your intention
hold, broken, collapse
i was alone
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8. |
Always
05:03
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can i go to a place in my head that’s a little less terrifying to go?
try to live a normal life instead, be a person no one knows
i feel replaceable - kinda like it
less desirable - let it sink in
living life normal is fine
never crossing a line
i let myself go - i felt him slipping anyway
giving in to the normal world
can i go to a time where i realize it can’t get that much better?
sinking into my own deceit as i try to seek some shelter
for so long i felt this pressure, i always thought it was someone else
so long to my reality, so long to my humanity
i feel it. the coursing of time passing by, still hanging on
i feel this passion inside i want realised - but still giving up
i’m giving in to the life i was afraid of now, and somehow
i knew this would happen, doubting myself again
are we living to leave behind what made us want to be alive?
i feel this, yet my heart is still beating
so glad it’s taken its course - so glad i’m normal
you will always be a reminder of why my mind is always scattered
let the pieces crumble in my hands as they try to grasp on to what i have left
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9. |
The Descent
04:37
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trying to find my peace of mind
finding all of the fragments, stuffing them inside
finding serenity in broken reality
this tearing divide, this casting aside
i am forgotten - so what?
in this prison of silence, a distorted perception
i feel the emptiness cloud this home i’m in
there’s no escaping - my mind is breaking
we were a place to where we can’t return
i watched the landscape as it burned
i was addicted to seeing the flames
as they cut the sky with nowhere to turn
there’s no escape!
i’ve lost all faith
there’s only so much i can take
until my mind starts to break
for so long i’ve felt this emptiness
i don’t want to live inside this prison
i won’t listen to this silence
holding on to the past
memories that will never last
i wanted to believe in better days
but in the end i only felt betrayed
i’m on the outside looking in
i am a witness to my own end
i can’t believe how far i’ve descended
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10. |
Death Comes
04:37
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death comes for us all again
heading for the end, waiting to begin
repeat our fate, doesn’t matter when
powerless i rise to this
i can’t believe it’s come to this
in a world of ignorance i rise to this
death follows us and closes in
waiting for the times we want to pretend
we want to leave behind our sins
death comes to make amends
i feel at home with death
life seems to have no value
the serenity of leaving here
stretches the limits of what this world allows you
i wanna know what it’ll take
to find a place at home here
to be comfortable with myself
powerless i rise to this
i should’ve known it’d come to this
in a world built of my ignorance
i’ll rise to the throne
i watch the end and start again
i could wish for a difference and never learn from myself
i’ll pretend to be someone else and never know who i am
and do it again
death comes to swallow you whole
giving into the dawn of a new beginning
pray for a day of reckoning
it’ll follow you home
it’ll swallow you whole
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11. |
Sonder
02:28
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Save State Records Dallas, Texas
indie record label from DTX. Representing XROSZ, reset memory, & rsm.vgm; formerly representing Posadas. Music videos and more at youtube.com/@savestaterecords
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